It's come my attention ( after weeks of NOT paying attention to my computer) that some of you are wondering why the hell it is I stopped writing. One of you even asked if I'm just flat out quitting. The answer to that is no. No I am not quitting.
Normally I would blame it on the fact that I got a job during the summer but the truth is... I was going through a LOT of emotional things. Nothing like a loss of a loved one or anything drastic like that. But as it would turn out I had some issues for quite a while, that I didn't even know about, which had gradually escalated to the point of developing depression like symptoms and just exploded. It's not like I hadn't noticed I was stressed, but I had thought I was just a stressed out college student who was just letting school get the best of me. So when I realized that I was still getting these issues over the summer and that it was impacting me even in my every day life it scared the crap out of me. Which is why I wasn't writing. I was feeling pretty messed up. Now I know you all must be thinking "Geez that sucks, sorry you had to go through all that" but truth be told.... I needed that. Like I said I kinda knew something was up but I hadn't bothered with it because I didn't think much of it. That overwhelming shock and intense fear really opened my eyes and made me realize just how bad it was and made me feel compelled to actually do something about it. Which I did. I am now getting help and trying out new meds. Hopefully they'll work and I will be able to get back on my feet and be able to start writing again.
So don't you threat I'm not done writing... I might just take a while, that's all.
And if you are going through some hard emotional times, I may not be an expert, but I do know what it's like to be depressed and constantly freaked out even at stupidest of things, so I am more than welling to write to you. Why? Cause I know that sometimes it's just good to share what's going with others. And it doesn't have to be about major issues, it can be just issues in general. Cause even I have those. Like my aphasia, I grew up with a learning disability so I KNOW what it's like to feel like your a literal retard cause you don't feel as smart as everyone else. It's a pretty shitty feeling.
If not, now you know what's up and I hope you guys still continue in supporting me and keep encouraging me to write. Cause you guys are the main reason I write. So keep reminding me of that, okay?